Caging a Caitian (part 5)

Posted on Sat May 2nd, 2015 @ 7:39am by Lieutenant Mira Jayna & Logan & Spock The Monkey
Edited on on Sat May 2nd, 2015 @ 7:40am

1,672 words; about a 8 minute read

Mission: Deadly Diplomacy

[CONTINUED]

[OLD]

Logan took a moment to look it over and noticed that it was Jayna's console in her work area. He touched the screen and authorized the program for use. "Sure. Let it do its thing, Horus." He said with a heavy heart as he looked around the mess from the fight and placed his hands on his waist. "Great. The Monkey saves the day and gets the girl and a cat is responsible for putting me in the dog house. Whose the moron who broke the mirror?"

[NEW]


It had been a while since Jayna used this particular program as she'd tried very hard to not fudge recordings since joining Starfleet, but this one needed a bit of an edit. Not too much, but just enough to keep Logan and Remy out of the brig. She didn't care if she got in trouble. It wouldn't be the firs time she ended up in the brig over something. It drove her sister, a security officer, nuts.

"Horus, save the original to my personal vault. Call it Han Shot First." She paused for a moment. "Better yet, call it Greedo Had It Coming. Highest security. Grumpy can see it. Or, I should say, Lieutenant Batiste. Hunter, too." She waited for the ship to comply. "Now, we need to clean this up a bit." Little by little she began to alter the scene. First, she made it look like Logan reacted to keep Kayte from shooting Remy, which he did, but she made it look a less like he was ready to rip out her throat. Then she had Kayte raise her weapon at Remy to shoot. That should do the trick, she thought. "Horus, save this as the original file. Make sure time stamps match." Staying focused helped, but she had to pause frequently to get her mind back in the game. Her thoughts kept replaying over the argument with Logan. Watching the images replay the fight didn't help any.

"Time stamp continuity repaired. Integration is complete. Saving file."

Logan didn't have the heart to make repairs. He just wasn't into it right now. He just walked over to the couch and sat down, slumping a bit in the cushion as he closed his eyes and took in a deep breath. "I really screwed up, Spock. I couldn't control myself, in front of Jay, and not she is scared at me. Or mad at me. Or both to be honest. It's very complicated." He let out a grunt as Spock crawled from his shoulder to his lap and sat down. "Do yourself a favor, don't ever try to kill someone in front of your girlfriend and refer to her as your mate. Might not work out well in the end for you." He laughed a bit and rubbed the Capuchin on the head. "Well, maybe for you it might be a good thing, but not for a Big Cat like me."

Jayna closed out her program and locked it away, along with the original recording. She looked at the door and sighed. She couldn't stay locked up in here forever, much as she found it appealing. Hopefully Remy and Logan we taking care of the other Caitian and she could skulk back to her quarters in peace so she could have a good, old-fashioned pity party.

She walked into the War Room and stopped. Just her luck, Logan was there with Spock. She took a deep breath and continued into the room, intent on her goal of getting off the shuttle.

Logan raised a brow as he watched her walk into the War Room. Spock gave a happy screech then cooed when he saw Jayna walked by. For a moment, Logan just kept to himself, and tired to find something else to do. Occupy his mind with some random thought, but all he could think about was Jayna and what happened. As he saw her approached the door, he quickly blurted out. "I'm sorry."

She stopped and turned to face him. "I know you didn't mean to get mad at the Caitian," she said.

"No, that bitch had it coming." Logan stood up quickly looking at her. "I'm sorry you had to see me like that. That I didn't prepare you for it sooner, I guess." He paused for a moment, taking in a deep breath before he continued. "I couldn't help it. But I would have reacted that way if it was you who got hurt, not just Spock or Remy. Except, for you, I might have let myself go and not held back." He said softly, looking away a bit.

"Yeah, and I was ready to throw her across the room," she added. "And Remy was ready to shoot her. Wait, he did shoot her. Well, you get the picture." She was trying to help him see that he wasn't the ony one to get angry.

Logan slowly walked to her. "My point is, Jay, I can't always turn it off. It's a reflex for me. I see someone I care about in trouble and a switch in my head goes off. The animal kicks in. It's the only time it happens and it hasn't happen in a long time. What I said, about you being my mate and not my mother? I didn't mean. I care a lot about you and I don't want to lose you because of all this. Sometimes, when stuff like that happens, its best to just stay out of my way and either let it burn out or try to snap me out of it."

"I wasn't going to let her shoot Remy and I wasn't going to let her make little kitty eyes at you," she stated. She couldn't add that it was also to keep Logan from hurting the Caitian and getting in trouble for it. "Nor am I going to act like your counselor and talk you down. Not when time is critical. I pulled you away and, if you hadn't interfered, would have thrown the minx across the room like she deserved." Which really wouldn't have been a good idea, either. But it would have made Jayde feel better.

"That was your first problem, assuming that someone else making eyes at me was every going to pull me away from you!" Logan replied, raising his voice.

"I never said that," she countered. "You're the one that's making assumptions."

"No? Someone makes kitty eyes at me and you get jealous? You jump immediately in and insist that I am yours and proceed to bash her head against the wall?" Logan countered. "Either you think I won't say No and might leave you for someone else or you have some big inferiority complex and think that you're not good enough for me. Which I never did anything to give you that impression. You tell me what I am supposed to think because that's what it I am getting out of it."

It was neither, but explaining would mean telling him what Remy said to her and she couldn't do that. "I'm not arguing with you," she stated flatly. "I'm done." the argument was quickly spiraling out of control and she couldn't stand to stay any longer and see something precious get blown to bits. She felt tears threatening to make her look like an even bigger fool than she already was. She never cried. She learned long ago that letting people see you cry only led to more pain. So, that left only one recourse. She again turned and headed for the door out of the shuttle.

"Do you believe I love you?" Logan said quickly

That stopped her again. "Usually."

"Usually? Usually?" Logan replied surprised. "Did I miss something?"

"Apparently *I* did," she replied. Seeing her relationship fall apart made her act without thinking. "You've already decided what I think and how I feel, so there's really no use trying to explain."

"And since you've decided that I don't love you, than this conversation has to be over." Logan replied walked passed her to the door. "Have fun with the monkey."

She picked up the first object that wasn't nailed down and threw it at the wall, deliberately missing Logan and anything of value. He didn't get it. She saw the man she loved lose his temper and get to the point he almost lost control. And losing control would get him in trouble -- not just for this case, but for the one Remy told her about. At the same time, the woman was ready to shoot Remy, a person she'd just gotten to actually respect. And she couldn't stand back and watch either of them get hurt. At the same time, she was furious at the Caitian female for trying to seduce Logan. It wasn't that she thought it would do any good, it was that she didn't like the woman doing it at all and lost her temper.

So, Jayna didn't think, she acted. And because she acted, Logan now thought she either didn't love him, didn't trust him, or didn't think HE loved HER. And anything she said to try and clear the air only made things worse because she never was very good at explaining herself.

Her thoughtless gesture lost her everything. What was ironic was that nobody would understand or even care that she acted instinctively. It wasn't a matter of not trusting them, it was a matter of not being able to do nothing. She'd done nothing before, on Bajor, and it ended badly.

She didn't care any more if he saw her crying. She turned and went back into her little cubby of a room and curled up into a tight ball to have a good cry. She'd really messed things up this time.

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Logan
Assistant Chief Intelligence Officer

Spock
Intelligence Officer

Lieutenant JG Mira Jayna
Assistant Chief Intelligence Officer

 

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